A NEW YEAR

If you are even 10 lbs overweight, I'm sure you made the age old resolution to lose weight. I've been making this resolution since I was 13 so it's not new to me. That last sentence is enough evidence to support that resolutions are worth nothing. I look at "New Year's Resolutions" kind of like I look at the top 25 rankings of college football before the season starts. Until the season starts and we see the teams play, we don't know who will be ranked what. Resolutions are like that. It's only until you follow through on your resolution that it means something to you and to everyone looking at you.

For me, January 1st was the date of the new decade. I thought about 10 years ago. I was engaged and was probably the same size I am now. I wore a size 18 wedding dress (that was depressing at the time). I was aware that I needed to lose weight but I was in full wedding mode and so happy to be getting married. The devil was distracting me with worldly things. I had a great job and no worries. Flash forward to January 1st, 2011. After many years of letting the devil win and yo-yo dieting, I finally have a grasp on this losing weight thing. I know now that your mind, heart and soul have to be in this for the long haul. It's not a "I'll lose the weight then sit back and relax" mentality. I will never be able to do that. It will always be struggle. That's so hard to swallow but that's what I've had to face. Of course, God has shown me that He is what I need. He has shown me how the devil uses food and laziness to sabotage my efforts.

I worked out the Tuesday before Christmas then was a total slug until last Monday. I ate mostly what I wanted, when I wanted it. Oh, it was so good going down but then I usually felt sick afterward. Since I've been eating a lot of low fat, low sugar stuff for so long, all that heavy, rich food hurt me. I realized how we get used to eating the bad stuff and (I think) the devil uses it to numb us to what is GOOD for us. This includes exercise too. Yesterday and today, I am SO sore from my workout on Monday. It's not fun to be sore. I would rather not be sore but for me, it's worth it. However, the devil will use that and tell me "if you just laid around, you wouldn't get sore. it's so much easier to stay home then to drive to a gym". He also wants me to ignore my time with God and getting in the Bible. These are all trick the devil tells us when he wants us to pull away from God. Just another way the devil wants what is BAD for us, and that includes food and exercise.

So I guess my resolution is to keep on keeping on. God is here with me and I will not fail.