18 min people! 18 min on the treadmill, running my booty off! Well, that's the point anyways. I hope to bump up my workouts to ONE more day, if I can. I feel like I need to be working out 4 days/week instead of 3. I think if I shoot for 4 and actually make it 3 then I feel like I'm doing good. Last week it was supposed to be 3 but ended up being 2. I have to work out more than that!

I tried, I really tried to use Truvia in my tea today (that's a non-sugar sweetener that's supposed to be natural). Then I was getting this horrendous headache and wasn't sure if it was the Truvia or not. Do you get headaches when you cut sugar out of your diet? Who knows...well, I went back to the sugar in the tea. Honestly people, can't I have my sweet tea? I'm not eating much else w/sugar in it. Do vidalia onions count? Ha. Ok, I WILL drink more water, starting tomorrow (as Scarlet would say)!

I did make a burger today but it was on a whole wheat bun w/minimal amounts of mayo and one slice of cheese. I had some baked cheetos too. They are NOT as good as the real stuff but better for you, I guess. Dinner was chicken casserole, broccoli and mac-n-cheese (from a box, made w/Lite marg and fat free milk).

I'm still searching for that picture of someone that I'd like to look like when all this weight loss happens. I see people at the gym and think, I'd LOVE to look like that. The truth is I have NO idea what I would look like b/c I haven't been a size 10 in about 10 years. I'm so used to this weight on me that I'm afraid I won't see it when losing the weight finally happens. It's depressing. It's also depressing to know that I will never be able to eat what I want, when I want. I will always be monitoring it. I will always have to exercise. Of course, there are a lot of "skinny" people out there that drop dead from heart attacks and other ailments so at least I KNOW I'm getting healthier.

God is so good. I know He's on my side w/this. I will prevail. I will succeed. I've lost 5 lbs and hopefully more by now. It's working, slow and steady.