Finally, another loss
I weighed yesterday. I was praying for a loss. Is that wrong? I don't know but it was a 2 lb loss! I was completely prepared for another disappointment, either a gain or stay the same. I was so happy to see a loss. I really needed to see that. God is so faithful to me. He knows what I need when I need it. Losing these 2 lbs have been hard fought, even if it's a drop in the weight loss bucket.
Another thing I realized yesterday. I have lost almost 50 lbs since 2007. I was shocked to really understand this. That is what both my girls weigh together! Wow. I think I've come to accept that it may take me 5 years to lose all the weight. Maybe that's God's plan for me. He's changed my view of food. Oh, I still LOVE to eat. I love cakes, pies, chocolate, fried foods, etc., but God has shown me that food is NOT a reward. Food is fuel for your body. He wants you to enjoy eating but not so much that it takes over and pushes Him out. I was letting food push God out of my heart. Oh, I still loved God and loved church and loved my family. But I was allowing my recklessness toward eating and exercising to take over my life. The devil knows where I am the weakest and attacks it with all his power. I will always have this battle but God has given me the power to fight it. It's exhausting but with His help, I will overcome.
So if you are reading this and wondering how you can do the same...well, I don't have an answer for you. For me, it was that first picture on my previous post-the one from the beach in 2007. God blew it up in 3D for me! Then when I got pregnant with Rebekah, it was in 4D! Something clicked for me that has never clicked before. God became (continues to be) the focus for me and letting Him take control of my eating and exercising habits. I knew that I had to make permanent change in my life. It was then that I started looking at food differently. That is the key-to look at food as what you need and not what you desire. You may not be there yet. It may not be time for you to start. Or maybe you are there and just don't know where to start. Let me know. I want to be praying with you and for you on your own journey.
Take a look at the verses on my blog today. It's AWESOME how these daily verses are so relevant to my current blogs!
2 comments:
Great job Again! Wow! 50lbs total! That is awesome!
I love how you wrote how God had changed your perspective - that he now allows you to see Food as Fuel - to only eat what you need not what you desire.
I drank water today. Lots of water. Sure I had my normal coffee but water was a good start today. It was something small that I could start with.
God is awesome!!! Your faith is inspiring. God be the Glory!
Your message is so inspiring, mostly because I was shaking my head "yes" as I was reading it. I'm working on it, I really am. The changing of the point of view, the heart and head change...but you just wrote it so well and just makes it seem so real and so do-able. So, maybe it will be baby steps for me too. And I am NOT good with those...especially in this area.
Thank you for blogging!! I'd ramble more, but Peyton is trying to help me type...
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