Macaroni and cheese, bread and pudding

I have been sick for the past 3 days, thanks to the pollen. I've never had allergies this bad. It seems that every year it gets worse for me. I have to remember to keep taking the Claritin but I forget. Anyways, when I am sick I seem to crave more carbs. All want is macaroni and cheese, bread, and pudding. Who am I kidding? I crave this all the time. I am addicted to macaroni and cheese (from the box or otherwise). It is the ultimate feel good food for me.

Bread is always welcome, in any form. About 2 weeks ago I went to Ryan's Steakhouse with my parents and I had a yeast roll. You know the ones w/the honey butter? It melted in my mouth. For weeks I'd not had white bread so this was wonderful. Well, then I had to account for it in my food journal and BAM! That one roll was 340 calories! No wonder it tasted like heaven.

Pudding....mmmm...need I say more? I'm a pudding lover. I would rather have that then cake or pie.

Anyways, as I sat down this morning to eat my usual breakfast I was thinking about food. I ate my wheat bread w/pb and j, egg and coffee but what I really wanted was a big ole stack of pancakes with butter, syrup and bacon on the side. Will these cravings ever go away? Will I learn that eating right and healthy is BETTER for you than that other crap you shovel into your mouth? Why does healthy food have to taste like cardboard sometimes? I know in my brain that healthy food is better for you. I'm starting to really understand that but then I have one roll at Ryan's and it's like "where have you been all my life?". I deny myself the brownies I made for my hubby (they are sitting out on the counter as I type) but cave when my friend makes a pudding dish (and it was so good). It's like the devil knows where to snare me. He knows how to push all my carb and sugar buttons.

Well, today is a new day. Back to eating those fruits and veggies!!!