I need to blog more, I need to blog more, I need to blog more...
I've not blogged in awhile and I guess it's due to a funk I've been in since, well, Christmas. I've not lost a lot of weight until recently when I finally lost 5 lbs. I'm pretty sure that the scale at the gym is broken so I'm not really sure if it's 5 lbs. I mean...a loss on the scale? It must be broken...ha.
A friend of mine challenged me to give up something for Lent. What is the one thing I eat or drink that would be a sacrifice for me? Duh...sweet tea. I have it at least once a day and even though my tea isn't super sweet, I enjoy every drop! I love the taste of tea so this is a sacrifice for me. Of course, it means I'm drinking more water which is much better for me but I'm missing my tea.
I posted a video from YouTube of my "theme" song for my weight loss. I almost cry every time I hear it b/c I am so guilty of listening to the devil about eating and I miss out on God's truth. I think food is the enemy (and in some forms, it is) but it's not. What is the true enemy? What makes me eat and eat and eat?? Well, number one...I love food. I don't think I use food to fill in a void in my life. I have Jesus in my heart and life so there isn't a void. I think my struggle with food is to STOP eating, even though it tastes so good. It's teaching myself to enjoy healthy foods to the extent that I enjoy "bad" food. I have to SILENCE that evil voice inside of me, that's saying "it's only one bite" or "you haven't had this in a long time, so it's ok" or "you deserve this". The "you deserve this" is the loudest voice in my head. As moms and wives, we do so much for our families and I often fall into the trap of "I deserve this piece of pie because I ...". The TRUTH is that I cannot reward myself with food. That is the devil's snare. Food is not a reward. It is only fuel for your body. Rewards should be a pedicure or massage.
Easier said than done.
By the way, another "theme" song is really what the healthier, thinner me inside is saying. It's "I'm coming out" by Diana Ross.
