WORKING ON IT
So...this low carb thing is H-A-R-D! I never realized how many things have carbs in them until I started keeping track of it. So far, I've only had a couple of days in the past 2 weeks that I went over my carb count. Every day other than that, I kept the count way under what livestrong.com is telling me to have. And I'm also trying to eat good carbs, like whole grains, fruits and veggies. Sounds easy right?
Um...no. It's easier to do at home because I can get a salad, fix veggies or eat fruit. The hard part is when I leave my house. For instance, John and I went to a beautiful wedding this weekend and the buffet was fried and baked chicken, cole slaw, mashed potatoes, baked beans, bread, brownies and, of course, wedding cake. I had a little cole slaw, a little mashed potatoes, some baked chicken and 1 bite of wedding cake. VERY HARD to pass up a lot more mashed potatoes and that cake...especially the cake!
It was hard when I went to eat Mexican too. I got chicken quesadilla, no rice or beans, but still got seduced by the chips!
It is getting somewhat better, although I think I will always WANT that piece of cake, cookie or whatever sugary goodness is around.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
MORE CONFESSIONS...
I feel like this blog entry should come with the sound bite of someone slapping me in the face. That's the way I feel currently about the state of affairs in my weight loss effort. I went to the doctor today and I had deliberately NOT weighed for about 3 weeks to give myself some time to lose ANYTHING. Why did that even matter when the scale at the office said NOTHING GOOD?! And it was a gain! NOOOOO! I was screaming inside. I wanted to shout to the nurse, "no...you don't understand. I eat pretty good and I exercise. It really should be a lower number! Please don't judge me! Why can't there be scales in the rooms so we can weigh naked? I mean, I was wearing jeans and heavy flip flops and I just drank about 1/2 gallon of water...it's not accurate! Don't judge me!" I am thinking this in the 2 seconds it takes for her to walk me to the room to meet the doc. I am so frustrated but really, honestly, I am not that surprised.
I haven't been writing anything down and I know I've been eating too many carbs lately. I've been exercising like normal BUT not eating as good as I could. There's been too many "I'll just have a little" there and "a handful of m-n-ms won't hurt" there. UGH. Really...it's all my fault. I also have not been doing a good quiet time and I haven't been surrendering this battle daily to God, so I have only myself to blame. The devil knows where I am weakest and he's been hitting me hard.
Carbs, for me, are the DEVIL. The devil knows this is my weakest link and for whatever reason, if I eat too many, my body says "hey look, there's a fat cell we have to multiply!" I won't lie...carbs are my happy place. Sugary carbs in particular. I would love to sit and eat pie after pie, or donut after donut, or bread after bread. I know I can't but I want it like a meth addict wants a hit. I am addicted like that! Now, I know it's not as extreme as a meth addict, but my addiction will kill me over time if not kept in check.
Truthfully, I have been avoiding writing in my blog. I knew I needed to get here and write it out. I knew I needed to start AGAIN. Luckily, it's not a horrible gain. Thankfully it's not more than 5 lbs, but for me, that's a lot. Anyways, I knew that I needed to tell whoever reads this that I am going to start over. New beginning...new goals.
After talking with my doctor (whom admitted that she struggles w/carbs as well), she and I both decided that the 1st 2 weeks of any kind of eating change is the worst. It's withdrawal. She said that if I could keep up what I was doing past 2 weeks, then it would get better. So here goes people...I am going to give up some carbs.
Now...I can't go cold turkey...no way...BUT I am going to try my hardest to keep away from them. I'm going to the library and get some low or no carb cook books. TRY to stay away from them during snack times. TRY to eat dinner and lunch w/almost no carbs. Oh man...I'm scared.
Please pray for me...I am facing a new challenge and new discipline. I've defeated so much on this journey but I still have a long way to go.
I feel like this blog entry should come with the sound bite of someone slapping me in the face. That's the way I feel currently about the state of affairs in my weight loss effort. I went to the doctor today and I had deliberately NOT weighed for about 3 weeks to give myself some time to lose ANYTHING. Why did that even matter when the scale at the office said NOTHING GOOD?! And it was a gain! NOOOOO! I was screaming inside. I wanted to shout to the nurse, "no...you don't understand. I eat pretty good and I exercise. It really should be a lower number! Please don't judge me! Why can't there be scales in the rooms so we can weigh naked? I mean, I was wearing jeans and heavy flip flops and I just drank about 1/2 gallon of water...it's not accurate! Don't judge me!" I am thinking this in the 2 seconds it takes for her to walk me to the room to meet the doc. I am so frustrated but really, honestly, I am not that surprised.
I haven't been writing anything down and I know I've been eating too many carbs lately. I've been exercising like normal BUT not eating as good as I could. There's been too many "I'll just have a little" there and "a handful of m-n-ms won't hurt" there. UGH. Really...it's all my fault. I also have not been doing a good quiet time and I haven't been surrendering this battle daily to God, so I have only myself to blame. The devil knows where I am weakest and he's been hitting me hard.
Carbs, for me, are the DEVIL. The devil knows this is my weakest link and for whatever reason, if I eat too many, my body says "hey look, there's a fat cell we have to multiply!" I won't lie...carbs are my happy place. Sugary carbs in particular. I would love to sit and eat pie after pie, or donut after donut, or bread after bread. I know I can't but I want it like a meth addict wants a hit. I am addicted like that! Now, I know it's not as extreme as a meth addict, but my addiction will kill me over time if not kept in check.
Truthfully, I have been avoiding writing in my blog. I knew I needed to get here and write it out. I knew I needed to start AGAIN. Luckily, it's not a horrible gain. Thankfully it's not more than 5 lbs, but for me, that's a lot. Anyways, I knew that I needed to tell whoever reads this that I am going to start over. New beginning...new goals.
After talking with my doctor (whom admitted that she struggles w/carbs as well), she and I both decided that the 1st 2 weeks of any kind of eating change is the worst. It's withdrawal. She said that if I could keep up what I was doing past 2 weeks, then it would get better. So here goes people...I am going to give up some carbs.
Now...I can't go cold turkey...no way...BUT I am going to try my hardest to keep away from them. I'm going to the library and get some low or no carb cook books. TRY to stay away from them during snack times. TRY to eat dinner and lunch w/almost no carbs. Oh man...I'm scared.
Please pray for me...I am facing a new challenge and new discipline. I've defeated so much on this journey but I still have a long way to go.
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